‘Evening
Stars’
Prologue
Before
the beginning God planned. He planned something special, something
new. He planned to create. For all eternity he had been alone, and
then Callodyn and Kayella had been born, and lived for a while, and
they rested. And the other Children of God filled his head, and then
he dwelt, for a while, upon Saruviel. Saruviel. What a bloody angel.
What a bloody serious bastard of an angel. For Jehovah’s sake, he
thought to his glory, what the hell would he do with Saruviel? Make
him the Antichrist, Gloryel suggested, at the back of his heart,
every day or so. That will teach the fucker a lesson. ‘Yes, dear
daughter. You really are glorious. Nice suggestion. I think
so.’
But,
seriously, what to do with Saruviel Saruviel, Saruviel, Saruviel.
Bloody Saruviel.
Destiny
was strange, weird almost, different. But would serve his purpose in
his threefold plan. His threefold Chronicle. Yet completion was
12-fold, as Valandriel would eternally testify to, And the Children
of God would ultimately yield to the Children of Love. But plans
often changed anyway, for the book of Destiny was full of all sorts
of crypticities, with shadows of turnings and all sorts of potential
dead ends.
But
Saruviel. Blessed Saruviel. Where to begin? At the beginning, I
suppose. At the Beginning.
And
so, as he had done, and presumably always would do so, Jehovah got to
planning, and Yahweh helped him out, and Adonai Eloheinu got on with
the job.
Part
One
Youthfulness
Chapter
One
The
first thing the Angel Saruviel remembered was darkness. Infinite
darkness. And therein he dwelt, and therein he found his peace, and
therein he found his absolution. And then, after darkness, a strange
thing. Light. And an Angel called Gabriel shone his love upon him,
and kissed him a brotherly kiss, and there they were, running around,
playing rocks, and having the time of their lives.
‘We’re
not the bloody Morning Stars, ok, Kantriel. We’re the Evening
Stars. Right, Daraqel.’
Daraqel
shrugged. Saruviel decided everything these days, didn’t
he.
‘Morning
Stars suck, anyway,’ said Devuel. ‘Especially Aquariel. Calls
herself ‘Morning Star’ herself. Bright blessed Gabriel’s loving
and devoted twin. Thinks she is glory, and not Gloryel. She’s hot,
though. Gloryel. I like her.’
‘Get
your mind out of the gutter,’ responded Saruviel with a glare. ‘She
likes me, after all. She tells me all the time. That I am nice and
serious, and that I am a responsible young angel. I’m older than
her, but she calls me a responsible young angel.’
Daraqel
and Kantriel sniggered at Saruviel’s joke.
‘Nah.
She likes me,’ responded Devuel. ‘Luladiel tells me so. Says she
looks at me when we are at Michael’s fort. Says she thinks I’m
cute.’
‘Cute?’
queried Saruviel. ‘I suppose. If someone whose face resembles a
bottom looks cute.’
Daraqel
and Kantriel grinned again.
‘Good
one, Sar,’ said Daraqel.
Saruviel
grinned, while Devuel gave him the finger.
‘If
there is anyone Gloryel likes, its obviously me,’ put in Semambarel
suddenly.
‘Dream
on,’ replied Saruviel. ‘You have the charms of Michael on a good
day. And he is as boring as they bloody get.’
‘Likes
to think he rules us,’ put in Devuel, picking a berry from a tree
and eating it.
‘He
doesn’t,’ said Saruviel flatly. ‘The old man does. The father.
He tells me who he is. Ok. I know who he is.’
‘Who?’
asked Daraqel?’
‘Yeh,
who?’ queried Kantriel.
Saruviel
smiled at them, and was about to boast out his knowledge, but kept
his lip.
‘Well,
never you mind. Ok. I’m seventhborn. And it’s my private
knowledge.’
‘You’re
a shmuck,’ said Devuel.
‘Saruviel’s
a shmuck,’ said Kantriel, teasing.
Saruviel
grabbed his younger brother, and the rest of the afternoon they
wrestled away, as the light gradually diminished throughout the Realm
of Eternity, another glorious day for the children of the Living
God.
*
* * * *
‘Michael.
You are good and responsible,’ said Elenniel.
‘Yes,
Michael,’ said Meludiel. ‘You are the bravest of us.’
Daniel
looked at Meludiel say that. He was instantly jealous.
‘I’m
the strongest, though,’ said Yaramiel.
‘I
can take ya,’ said Abraqel,’ and the two of them fell to a
wrestling contest, as some of the Seraphim of Eternity gathered
around to watch them and laugh.
The
140 angels were mostly there, at the fort of Michael, living their
young lives, in Zaphora. It was not yet known as Zaphora, but the
Realm of Eternity, but one day it would be. They were young. Still so
very young, living innocently in the world God had created for them,
eating at the garden, running around, now in tunics which had been
made from cotton which had been made into thread. Of course, they
knew each other’s nakedness well, but innocence knew no concerns of
any thoughts of anything other than childful play. Besides, the
equipment, as it where, for that mysterious act of procreation was
not yet part of the children of God. One day it would be, but not
yet.
They
had adventures, each and every day, and Gabriel had gone on about a
message from God, who had called each of them his precious Morning
Stars. And he liked it when they sang together, the Morning Stars.
When they sang as a group, lovely songs of life, and praise. And he
loved them each, oh so very dearly. And he treasured them. And he
delighted in them. And they were all united. And they were all at
peace.
And
then there was Saruviel.
Michael
wondered about Saruviel, occasionally. He was a different type of
brother, Sar. A lot more, well. Well, serious. Like he felt he was
the real firstborn in a way, and somehow the real and most
responsible one of them. Weird that. That was not true. Michael was
number one. He had always known that. Of course, he loved Saruviel,
and they played around together from time to time, but now, with all
140 angels born, groups had begun forming. Little cliques, were
certain angels seemed to connect more strongly with certain others,
and that was, apparently, the way of things.
Like
Azrael and Cosadriel. They fought each other tooth and nail,
constantly. Always arguing, always boasting, but the love was always
apparent as well. Like a rivalry which would last for all time. And
perhaps even longer. He loved watching those two go at it, and their
twins would stand idly by, used to the shenanigans, used to the
rivalry.
There
were many such groups, and Saruviel had one also. Him and Kantriel
and Daraqel especially, with the predictable Devuel always there, and
Semambarel half the time as well.
And
then there was Daniel, who kept to himself, the shy one, but seemed
to get along with Kantriel a little bit. He puzzled on Daniel.
Different sort of an angel. Quiet. Shy. Like he hadn’t quite
connected with the rest of the angels yet. Just like him.
Of
course, he and Gabriel and Raphael ran things, and they were the
tightest group of all.
And,
of course, Ambriel. The love bug himself. He could never live without
the little guy, smiling at him, asking endless question after
question, and the constant concern for every angel in the family.
It
was a good group, the Morning Stars of God. And they would always be
that, he supposed. Together. Living at peace with each other. Happy
and at play. Forever, naturally. Or so he believed.
*
* * * *
‘What’s
this?’ Kantriel asked Saruviel.
‘The
New Order,’ replied the seventhborn of the angels.
‘The
New Order? 50 Male Angels. You first. There’s no Michael on it. A
whole lot of angels are not on it.’
‘Followers
of Michael. The hard core. I cut them out.’
‘Why?’
‘Coz
they suck,’ replied Saruviel. ‘Besides, I’ll re-add them to the
list later on. When I have proved my point.’
Kantriel
studied the list for a while longer and nodded. ‘Ok. I’ll go with
you on it.’
‘On
what?’ asked Daraqel, sitting down. Kantriel handed him the
papyrus.
‘The
New Order,’ said Daraqel. ‘But there is only 50 of them? And no
Michael.’
‘Nor
his crew,’ said Kantriel.
Daraqel
handed it back to Kantrie. ‘Yeh. Alright. If you say so
Saruviel.’
‘Yes.
Yes I do, young brother. Yes I do.’
‘Can
I have a look?’ asked Semambarel.
Kantriel
handed him the list. It read:
The
Seraphim Males of Eternity
1.
Saruviel
2.
Sariel
3.
Bantriel
4.
Cimbrel
5.
Dameriel
6.
Valandriel
7.
Loquiel
8.
Cosadriel
9.
Kelkuriel
10.
Gamrayel
11.
Semambarel
12.
Jontel
13.
Yaramiel
14.
Mistrel
15.
Matrel
16.
Kantriel
17.
Daraqel
18.
Simonuel
19.
Azrael
20.
Jerahmeel
21.
Devuel
22.
Zadennuel
23.
Jamenuel
24.
Talutiel
25.
Phindwel
26.
Remriddel
27.
Roshael
28.
Kalenuel
29.
Gandel
30.
Talzudiel
31.
Sosteriel
32.
Daniel
33.
Radrukiel
34.
Sadurael
35.
Abraqel
36.
Pendrael
37.
Fazuel
38.
Wendel
39.
Berakiel
40.
Ulantriel
41.
Judayliel
42.
Desdrael
43.
Othaniel
44.
Queriel
45.
Zakiel
46.
Saziel
47.
Adruel
48.
Halyudiel
49.
Samael
50.
Zashadiel
‘What
about the rest?’ asked Semambarel innocently.
‘I’ll
add them back in later. When they have learned their lesson,’
responded Saruviel.
‘Fine,’
said Semambarel a bit nervously, but didn’t object either.
Saruviel’s new order. Forever onwards, he supposed. Well, ok. Why
not. Why not.
*
* * * *
Daniel
was a shy angel. He didn’t get along with the group very well, but
his twin, Ariel, talked with him from time to time and reminded him
he was loved. He liked all the angels, but didn’t think Michael was
a very good choice for firstborn. He was showy. He dressed himself
with an attitude of ‘I know everything and I am the superior one,
and sucked up compliments constantly and thought himself worthy of
them. He thought him an idol the angels worshipped, usurping God’s
place in the scheme of things, and trying to be an authority when he
should leave people alone to live their own lives and not put up with
the whims of an angel only focused on ‘being cool’ about things.
Like he was something special. He talked with Ariel about this and
she nodded to him. ‘But we like to flatter Michael anyway. We love,
remember. Who cares. Life goes on. Michael will get over his
superiority complex one day.’
‘At
least Saruviel has a brain about it,’ responded Daniel. ‘He has
authority naturally in him, and wields it well keeping people in line
when they listen to him. More imagination as well. Michael’s sucks
in comparison.’
‘Then
go join Saruviel then,’ she replied.
‘No.
No thanks in the end. In the end, I think, he is a bit arrogant as
well, and probably has something coming to him from God. In a million
years, or something.’
‘What’s
a year?’ she asked innocently.
‘The
old man talked about it with me. A measurement of a unit of days.
Count off the same number of days time and again, each being a
year.’
‘Oh,’
said Ariel. ‘An interesting idea.’
‘God
tells me lots of things,’ said Daniel.
‘The
old man isn’t God. He just represents him.’
‘Mmmm,’
said Daniel. ‘Probably. I am not sure, though, in the end if he is
really that, though. God. Despite claiming to be to me.’
‘Oh,
you have doubts about him.’
‘He
thinks to highly of Michael. The Spirit of God says to me it’s not
the same in eternity, later on. When things are resolved. When the
truth is known. A new order will arise, when a correction of
illusions has been made.’
‘The
Spirit of God?’ she asked him.
‘A
technical term for who God really is. The big voice. Not this Jehovah
fellow.’
‘Jehovah?
You and your big words, Daniel. You are always too technical. Lighten
up.’
He
looked softly at her, and walked away. He didn’t like being
rebuked, and sulked for ages when his brothers and sisters had a go
at him.
Ariel
watched him go. She’d done that before. Had a go at him. She knew
it wasn’t right. The others did it as well. Teased Daniel. Seemed
everyone liked to do that. Tease Daniel. Probably, she should know
better. Probably.
*
* * * *
Kantriel
surveyed the plane. Right in the centre of the Realm, a plane,
roughly circular, fit for a grand and great home.
‘It
shall be called Zaphon,’ declared Michael confidently to the crowd.
‘It shall be our home, our eternal abode, our eternal rest, of joy
and peace. Yet, first, according to the word of God, we must make
things – tools and such – to construct what he calls a ‘Keep’.
And therein we shall find our salvation.’
Kantriel
made the first axe, and Saruviel the first saw, Michael designed the
first hammer, and Gabriel made nails. Many long, many short. Yaramiel
and Abraqel worked with rock and, soon, they were making a trial go
of an abode north of the plane. It looked ok when finished, but
father told them they would now be challenged to excellence, and when
it was torn down, they had been fitted with proper work clothes by
the ‘Tailors’ amongst them, the quality of their tools improved
greatly, and plans drawn up for the design of the keep. It would take
a long time, was all they were told, the building of Zaphon, but they
took to the task and, in the late afternoons, when they drank from
the Sellawon, or ate from the fruit of the gardens, they would gaze
on the unfolding Zaphon keep and know they had worked a triumph.
And
then, lo and behold, it was complete. And then, lo and behold, it was
done.
And
the angels had built themselves a home.
*
* * * *
‘You
really don’t know who God is at all. Now you say its Jehovah again.
Make up your mind Daniel.’
‘I’m.
Uncertain,’ he finally responded to Ariel’s point.
‘Just
like you,’ she responded. ‘Come on. God is God. Just the way it
is. Get on with your life. Leave stupid questions alone.’
‘I
guess so,’ responded the uncertain Daniel the Seraphim, but the
question still puzzled him.
Later
on that year, the year Zaphon had been built, Daniel spied Meludiel
alone in the lower dining room. He looked at her, and he wasn’t
sure if she noticed him, but he looked at her, fascinated yet again
by her beauty, and coveted her heart. But then he rebuked himself yet
again, left the room, and went down to the Sellawon. Meludiel would
never like him. She would always be faithful to Ambriel. He would
never impress her. But still he looked, and still he ogled, but
acting on that impulse. Well he would never do that, would he? Would
he?
*
* * * *
Saruviel
sat there, in the darkness, alone, nobody else around, thinking to
himself, alone, nobody there, alone – quiet. Quiet.
He
was in the cellar of Zaphon keep, sitting in a lounge chair, on the
northern wall of the large cellar, a candle he had brought down with
him steadily burning away, doing nothing at all but just sitting
there, lost in thought. Hand on chin, resting in the seat,
thinking.
‘In
the end, when all the hurly burly had come and gone, and they’d had
all their celebrations, and built all their marvellous abodes. In the
end when they’d had all their romances, and made all their
wonderful friendship clubs and had all their loves. In the end, when
they’d designed every invention capable of and bragged and boasted
about being Angels of Glory. In the end, when it was all said and
done, and they’d done everything they were capable of doing, what
then? And really, what was the point? What was the point?
It
felt like, in a strange way, that life was meaningless at that point.
Like it was chase after the wind. Like it served no great purpose and
that after you had achieved all your glory, fear God and obey him,
and that was all that mattered in the end anyway.
And
then, in the end, why serve God? If life was that predictable, that
mundane, that according to plan, why serve God at all? Perhaps he was
just a bit boring in the end. And perhaps he just made the angels
conform to his whims for his own pleasure, for his own sense of glory
and accomplishment. Perhaps he didn’t really care at all, and just
had made them for his good pleasure. Perhaps that was what it was all
about.
But
that wasn’t fair. They deserved better than that. The angels of
glory, they deserved much better than that – than being mere ‘play
things’ for the cosmic creator.
And
suddenly he was annoyed, and suddenly he was angry, and suddenly he
was pissed off.
But
he kept his anger to himself, and he kept his thoughts to himself,
and he thought on the evening stars, and he thought on the truth he
knew.
And
time would tell of what would be.
*
* * * *
‘The
operation is ready to go,’ said Kantriel, his face covered in black
ash, wearing khaki clothes like the rest of them, all garbed up in
‘Evening Stars Elite’ uniforms.
‘Ready?’
queried Saruviel to all the Evening Stars surrounding Zaphon.
‘ATTACK!’
And
in they moved, like death shadows, bags full of pooey laundry and,
one by one, while the angels slept, dropped the pooey whites onto the
faces of the sleeping Seraphim.
All
around Zaphon, for the next half an hour, outbursts of ‘Pooo,
what’s the stink,’ as one by one the Evening Stars heard shocked
yells of ‘What the heck!’ and so on.
Eventually,
Michael in the lead, they all appeared downstairs in the main lobby
outside of the dining room. And there, on the lounge chairs, sat the
evening stars, smirking at each other, and looking oh so not
innocent.
‘Are
you guys responsible for this?’ Michael asked them instantly,
holding a shitty sheet.
‘We’ve
been playing bush games,’ responded Kantriel. ‘What, you couldn’t
hold it in?’
‘Very
funny,’ said Gabriel. Daniel strolled up, then, from out of the
keep, not having been affected by the situation.
‘Was
this you Daniel?’ they all asked him, looking at the innocent
Seraphim.
‘It
was Daniel,’ some of them started yelling, perhaps too nervous to
accuse Saruviel and his crew.
Daniel
looked on, and suddenly burst into tears, and ran out the way he had
come, Ariel quickly running after him.
But
Michael glared at the confident Saruviel. He knew who it was. And
Saruviel would get his come uppance one day. You could count on
that.
*
* * * *
‘Nobody
likes me,’ said Daniel miserably. But Ariel held him in her arms,
and rocked him gently. They were there half the night, sitting next
to a Zaphon porch, Daniel feeling sad, and Ariel rocking him and
singing softly to him. She told him stories and adventures and said
to him that life and eternity would go on forever and see millions,
perhaps billions of different places and adventures for each of them,
and they would have countless friends and intimates before, at the
end of it all, they would find each other again, and then, when all
was said and done, Daniel Would love Ariel and Ariel would Love
Daniel, and that would be that.
And
Daniel fell asleep in Ariel’s arms, and she watched his eye
movements, and wondered what strange dreams he would have, and she
loved him with all her heart. With all her heart.
*
* * * *
‘One
day you will have to grow up, though. If you want to be
firstborn.’
Saruviel
acknowledged the words of the old man. ‘But, even that? What’s
the point? Of it all?’
‘You.
You will have to figure that out for yourself. It’s in your heart,’
and the old man patted Saruviel on the back, and wandered away, and
Saruviel sat there, on eastern porch of Zaphon, thinking about life.
It was sunny at the moment, and the angels were mostly around there
at the moment, celebrating Daniel’s birthday. Ariel was seated next
to him all day, and after the stunt they pulled recently, Saruviel
knew what was coming to Daniel. He got up, went inside, and soon
returned with the sealed package.
He
weaved through the crowd, and sat down next to Daniel.
‘Ho,
its Saruviel,’ said Michael to everyone. ‘Does he have a great
gift for Daniel?’
‘Let’s
see, Saruviel,’ said all the angels in unison.
Saruviel
looked at Daniel. ‘You know, you’re a pretty special guy, Danny.
When it all comes right down to it. We want you in the Evening Stars,
and we promise to behave a bit better about it all.’
And
Saruviel undid the package, and revealed an Evening Stars Elite
uniform, which Daniel put on, and it fitted perfectly.
Daniel
smiled, and Ariel beamed at him all day long.
And,
from the corner of the celebration, the old man looked on, and also
smiled at Daniel, and said to himself. ‘An Evening Star? When all
is said and done? Very well then. His glory shall certainly be
challenging because of it.’
And
the Spirit of God said in the throneroom of Zaphon ‘AMEN!’.
*
* * * *
Saruviel
and Devuel were at Michael’s fort. ‘They don’t come here much,
anymore. Since Zaphon’s been built,’ said Devuel casually.
‘Life
moves on,’ responded Saruviel, digging into the dirt at his
feet.
‘Yeh.
Who knows where we will be in a million years, huh?’
‘Ruling
trillions,’ responded Saruviel.
‘Very
funny. There are only 140 of us,’ responded Devuel.
‘You
think that is the way it will always be?’ queried Saruviel, looking
directly at his younger Evening Star brother.
‘I
don’t know. Won’t it?’
Saruviel
just looked at him and continued digging.
A
distance away Semambarel and Kantriel and Daraqel were all playing
around, throwing pine cones at each other, acting like idiots.
Saruviel gave them a glance, but continued what he was doing.
‘More
angels?’ asked Devuel, curious.
‘Sure,
why not?’ responded Saruviel. ‘You think God is satisfied with
just 140 of us? He wants unlimited numbers, probably, in the end. A
neverending supply.’
‘And
how do you know this?’
‘It’s
what he’s raising us for,’ responded the all-knowing
Saruviel.
‘Maybe
he’s made others already,’ thought Devuel out loud.
‘Maybe,’
said Saruviel.
‘Fuck.
It would be intense if we had other brothers and sisters. People he
hasn’t talked to us about.’
‘Out
there,’ said Saruviel, pointing. ‘Out there. It must go on
forever. It just has to. If there was a real end to it, what lies
beyond that?’
‘Dunno,’
responded Devuel.
‘Just
that. God hasn’t worked there yet. But he will. I am certain of it.
And it’s our destiny to be part of it.’
‘Our
destiny?’ queried Devuel.
‘Our
Destiny,’ confirmed Saruviel.
Devuel
just looked at his brother, considering his thoughts. Just like
Saruviel. To meditate on the heavy shit in life. Just like
him.
Suddenly
a pine comb hit Saruviel on the head, and the three others bore down
on them, and another of the Evening Stars famous wrestling sessions
began, a tight fought contest, for they were reasonably well matched.
And the spirit of God observed some of the more memorable cussing
this little group had portrayed so far, and even though he raised an
occasional eyelid, he let it be. Such were the Evening Stars of God.
And how could he ever really complain?
*
* * * *
Daniel
and Kantriel were on the northern edge of the Realm, near the Rim.
The Rim was the edge of the Realm of Eternity, the realm being
roughly circular in shape. You couldn’t really transverse the rim,
though, as everyone knew. If you flew out beyond it you would go only
so far, and while you would keep on flying and might feel like you
were, if you looked back at the realm you would notice you were not
getting any further away. A very strange design of God, which had
always puzzled the angels, Daniel especially.
‘Meludiel
will never like you,’ said Kantriel, to a subject Daniel had
gingerly raised. Of all the angels, it was usually Kantriel who
Daniel seemed to be able to get along with a little, although he had
been interested in making friends with Valandriel for a long time,
but who always seemed to be doing this or that.
‘Your
right. I know. She likes Ambriel too much.’
‘What
do you expect? Their twins?’
‘But
she doesn’t hang around him very much,’ responded Daniel.
‘You
know how girls are,’ said Kantriel. ‘Shantriel doesn’t even
talk to me at all hardly, but she’s my twin, and occasionally I see
her looking at me. She doesn’t like the Evening Stars thing,
though. Upsets her. Wants me to be a Morning Star.’
‘An
Evening Star is more interesting,’ responded Daniel. ‘But
sometimes I feel I am different type of Star entirely.’
‘Yeh.
The poo Star,’ said Kantriel, grinning.
‘And
you’re the Shit Star,’ replied Daniel, and grabbed his brother,
as they wrestled away for a while.
‘If
I’m the Shit Star, there must be a Piss Star,’ said Kantriel,
smiling.
‘That’s
Daraqel,’ smiled Daniel.
‘Which
makes Saruviel your Pee Star,’ replied Kantriel, a huge grin on his
face.
‘Then
what is Semambarel?’ asked Daniel.
‘The
Vomit star,’ suggested Kantriel.
‘Which
makes Devuel the Puke Star,’ finished Daniel, and they started
laughing.
‘But
your both idiot stars,’ said Ariel, who had snuck up on them and
been watching them quietly.
‘Don’t
worry,’ said Kantriel. ‘She’s the bitch star.’
‘Kantriel!’
scolded Ariel. ‘A lovely way to talk about your sister,’ but she
softened on him.
‘What’s
Ambriel?’ asked Daniel.
‘The
Gay Star,’ replied Ariel, and all three of them burst out
laughing.
‘And
Michael?’ asked Daniel.
‘The
Dork Star,’ said Devuel.
And
one by one, by the Sellawon, for the rest of the afternoon, the group
of three little angels proceeded to mock the entire heavenly host,
granting them quite rude and disturbing titles of eternal Star Glory.
And God reminded himself to write the entire list down, despite the
vulgar, and quite shocking, display of onomatic brilliance from the 3
little devils.
*
* * * *
'Gabriel.
Dear brother. Can I have a word?'
Gabriel
turned to the voice. It was Saruviel.
'Yes,
Saruviel. How can I help you?'
'You
speak with God. Of course, we all do, but I find that he seems to
confide in you most of all, these days especially.'
Gabriel
almost blushed. What Saruviel had said was somewhat true, now, he had
noticed. While Michael had always been the firstborn and chief
advocate from their Father from 'Eternity's Haven', were God in the
throneroom was known to summon Michael often and speak with him,
instructing him on what he should tell the angels, in recent times it
had been Gabriel more and more so which had been chosen for this
role. And quite apparently that had been noticed.
'Well,
thanks Sarry. What do you want me to ask him?'
'Its
not so much a request, but an inquiry. An inquiry on, how shall we
put it, permissions.'
Gabriel
was puzzled. Permissions? What was Saruviel driving at.
'What
sort of permissions?' inquired Gabriel.
'Exactly
just that,' replied Saruviel. 'I wish to know, how can I put it, our
freedoms. What are the liberties we are allowed here in Eternity?
What can we do? What can we get away with?'
'Get
away with?' responded Gabriel a little concerned. 'You want to get
away with something?'
'You
misunderstand me,' responded Saruviel. 'I'm not trying to get away
with anything at all. Far be it for the seventhborn of God to wish to
cause disharmony in the community. I just wish to know the kind of
behaviours we can perhaps practice, even perhaps a little casually,
without drawing concern from God. What does he tolerate?'
'Well,
he has always tolerated quite a bit,' responded Gabriel. 'God loves
us. You know that. Why such a strange question?'
'Good
to know what you think,' responded Saruviel, even a little sharply.
'But I'd like to hear God's opinion on the subject. If that is ok,
mind you. You don't mind asking, do you?'
'Uh,
no. No, sure,' replied Gabriel. 'Its a strange question, personally,
as we are really just supposed to behave ourselves and get along. But
if you wish to know the limits of our playfulness, sure. I will ask
him for you.'
'Thanks,'
replied Saruviel. 'Very gracious of you. Look, I'll check back with
you in a few days, if that's ok.'
'Sure,'
responded Gabriel.
Saruviel
nodded, looked at his brother cautiously for a moment, and smiled.
'Well, I'll be seeing you. And thanks. I look forward to the answer.
Seeya.'
Saruviel
turned and left and, as Gabriel watched him go, he puzzled for a
moment on the strange question but then, his thoughts returned to
what he was doing, turned and continued on with his busy day.
*
* * * *
'What
was his answer then?' asked Kantriel.
'Officially,
the Father of Glory loves all his children and their playful hearts.
But there are limits in behaviour, and Torah answers such dilemmas.
Nothing more was said,' responded Saruviel.
'Torah
doesn't restrict us much,' said Daraqel, of the tightknit group of
3.
'Oh,
it has ideas,' responded Saruviel. 'He does not tolerate all that we
might think to do. There are words in their which have shades of
judgement.'
'Judgement?'
asked Kantriel. 'What the heck is that?'
'The
rulings of God,' said Saruviel soberly. 'And that is what I fear
quite strongly. That God will have his rulings upon us and that, in
truth, we are not as free as we might imagine.'
'So
what?' queried Kantriel, who was now munching on their lunch
meal.
'Yeh,
what's the big issue?' said Daraqel, in response.
Saruviel
looked upon his two younger Seraphim brothers. They did not, yet,
have quite the imagination that he had hoped for.
'In
the accomplishing of glory, sometimes rules need to be bent,' said
Saruviel.
'Ooh,
bend the rules,' grinned Kantriel.
'Suffer
the judgement of God,' said Daraqel dramatically.
'Indeed,'
replied Saruviel, who said nothing more, as they continued on with
their meal.
*
* * * *
Ambriel
was the 60th born of the Seraphim of Eternity, who worked with
Raphael and Loquiel and others to bring harmony to the lives of God's
children. He was a ministering angel, an angel of great love and,
under Raphael, worked faithfully and tirelessly to bring peace and
harmony to the community of God's angels. Today he was busy enough,
and then Raphael made a request of him.
'Ambs.'
'Yes,
Raphael,' responded Ambriel, looking up at his bigger brother.
'I
have a task for you. A request from God, actually. Saruviel. He wants
you to take a bit of an interest in him for a while. Chat with him.
Hang around a bit. See if all is well with him.'
'Sure,'
smiled Ambriel warmly. 'I'd love to do that.'
'Good.
Thanks,' said Raphael, and returned to what he was doing.
Ambriel
was happy. He loved all his brothers and sisters, and Saruviel as
well. And it delighted him that God had given him this special task
to watch over Saruviel. He wouldn't let him down, and would be
careful and quiet and monitor Saruviel and report to Raphael whatever
was happening. A good time to spend some quality time with his older
brother, he thought happily to himself, as he returned to his task at
hand and got on with his day.
Chapter
Two
And
time passed. And the Cherubim came to be. And Linda was a cherubim,
and Saruviel had a fascination.
'Hey
babe.'
'You
again,' said Linda, looking at the Seraphim of Power. 'Wanting to
rule the world, so they say. Don't ya.'
'Do
you like girls?' asked Saruviel.
Linda
looked at him squarely. 'And what is that supposed to mean?'
'Girls
are a rush,' said Saruviel. 'I have the time of my life with the
ladies.'
'You
are a devil, arentcha,' she responded.
'Perhaps
you could be one too,' he grinned. 'Takes a devil to know a devil,'
he said.
She
looked at him. 'No thanks. I have enough freedoms.'
'You
really don't know what you are missing. I know these Cherubim girls.
They'll do anything you want. Literally.'
'I'm
sure they will,' said Linda. 'But I'm not interested.'
'Maybe
some other time,' said Saruviel, and came over, kissed her on the
forehead, and said. 'I want you Linda. For my team. I NEED you. Your
one of the best. Noticed you right away.'
'Sure.
I'm sure you did,' she said nervously, after being kissed by
Saruviel.
'We'd
be magic together,' said Saruviel.
'What's
magic?' she asked him innocently. A voice in Saruviel's head went
silent.
'Uh,
nothing babe. Don't worry about it.' But, as he started walking away
he turned to her. 'I'll be seeing you, babe. You can count on
it.'
'Sure,'
she said, and continued on with her raking up the leaves. But she
looked at him as he walked away, and she thought on what he had
said.
*
* * * *
Daniel
sat with Semambarel in the cafeteria of Zaphon, eating baked Langwah
for dinner with vegetables.
'So.
Semambarel. Caught up with Saruviel's agenda. What do you make of it,
then?'
'You
should know. Your an Evening Star, aren't you?'
'I
think I'm a Morning Star now,' replied Daniel. 'Not sure if I like
the direction Saruviel is headed in.'
'You'll
always be an evening star, one way or another,' responded Semambarel,
and took a sip of Melit water.
'You
sure you agree with Saruviel?' asked the 45th male of the
Seraphim.
'No.
If you really must know, no. I'm not sure. And that is the point. I
think, perhaps, I need to find out. To find out if I'm sure or
not.'
'You
think that is wise?' asked Daniel.
'You
and Kantriel are still best friends,' said Semambarel. 'I don't see
you objecting to his company.'
'We've
had a parting of the ways, recently. A few months back. Valandriel
and myself have taken up a friendship since then.'
'Oh,
yes, Valandriel,' said Semambarel. 'He's probably good for you.
Similar viewpoints. Likes your ideas, from memory. Thinks you have
insight.'
'Thanks,'
said Daniel, and sipped on his own Melit Water. 'I've always liked
this Melit water, you know,' said Daniel. 'Pure. Good. The Melit
fruit is lovely enough on its own, but the water juice from it is
amazing.'
Semambarel
looked at Daniel. He could tell when his brother was making a
point.
'But
Saruviel. Is he really Melit Water? Or something more difficult to
palate?'
'Grog,
perhaps,' said Semambarel, chuckling.
'Perhaps,'
replied Daniel.
'Don't
worry. I don't drink much,' said Semambarel, about the new alcoholic
beverages that had been recently coming into the realm.
'But
perhaps Saruviel does,' said Daniel.
Semambarel
looked at him squarely. 'You know, Dan. Perhaps he does
indeed.'
'Yes,'
finished Daniel. 'Perhaps he does indeed.'
*
* * * *
'Take
a walk on the wild side, babe,' said Saruviel to Linda.
'You
again,' she said. Linda was out in front of her Terraphoran abode,
not far from the Sellawon river, a place she lived in on her own, not
far from a place where she got her food resources. She gardened a
fair bit, and was raking up leaves the last few weeks, as she liked a
clean garden.
'Life
with Number Seven is a rush, sweetie. I don't come on to every chick,
you know. Very few, ok. Krystabel has never really tasted my charms.
She's ok, but very square. God's idea, I think.'
'And
you want to party,' smiled Linda.
'Sure
you can provide the thrill as well,' said Saruviel. 'I've got some
grog,' he said, lifting up two bottles of alcohol.
'Sure
then. Come inside.'
They
sat in the front room for some time, eating Langwah and drinking the
grog, and Saruviel started making his move. He kissed her, then asked
to see her breasts. And as his tongue caressed them, he talked her
into unzipping. He tongued away at her Vagina, which usually caused a
mild sensation of pleasure in women, and sometimes they felt quite
strong sensations, and they made out. He even managed to talk her
into returning the favour and, after five minutes of her tonguing his
phallus, it got a little bit hard, which occasionally happened from
such ministrations, and he had that rush of feeling that heavy
lovemaking sometimes gave.
'I
feel this sensation. In my loins,' he said. 'Don't stop babe.' And
she kept at it for a while, but then it passed, and Saruviel knew it
would be ages before he would feel such things again.
He
kissed her. 'You were sweet. I love it when girls do that for
you.'
'Any
time,' said Linda.
As
they got up, Saruviel ready to leave, he pinched her on the butt.
'Your hot, you know. Fancy you something shocking.'
'It
must be love,' she said dryly. He grinned at that.
'Nah.
Not love. Just lust. The good stuff in life.'
'I'm
sure you actually mean that,' she said sarcastically.
'Unlike
Michael, I admit the truth. And my fascinations.'
'I'm
sure you do,' said Linda. 'Can I have the rest of the grog?'
'Be
my guest,' he responded. 'Oh. One last thing. We're having a meeting.
Next month on Galadon. Discussing the future of the movement. Are you
interested?'
She
looked at him and, finally, after the turmoil the issue had cost her
in recent thoughts, shrugged. 'May as well,' she replied.
'Cheers,'
responded Saruviel. 'But I'm sure we'll meet before then.'
'Let's
hope so,' she responded, as he made his way out of her house and back
to his own world.
She
sat there, as the darkness encroached that afternoon, drinking the
grog, and getting slightly drunk. What the heck was she getting
herself into? What strange new world would Saruviel take her into?
She kidded herself that she'd be fine, but a still, quiet voice said
in the corner of her mind, are you sure you know what you are doing,
girl. And, in all honesty, she could not say that she did.
*
* * * *
'The
Quest for holiness,' continued the speaker. 'The quest to be true to
ourselves, above all else, is to know that we, in our own strength
and being, are the equal of God and that we, in our own strength and
being, are just as important and valid as God. His vanity is amazing,
isn't it. Make himself the centre of Torah. As if all depends on
himself, and we could not shit without him.'
That
brought some giggles from the crowd.
'And
I tell you, perhaps I could not give a shit about him, these days. He
is a control freak. A being which must omnipotently push us around,
like a grandmaster of Katchular, and not give one damn to our
possible objections or that we might jolly well have our own damn
idea on this or that, and that we might and can, and in fact DO think
for ourselves.'
A
cheer went up from the crowd and Linda, near the front of the
audience on the Kalphon lawn watched her man anxiously. She'd heard a
lot of this rhetoric in the last week especially, when he'd been
coming around all the time, making love, and freely speaking his
mind. But his passion in front of this crowd was amazing. She was
hooked.
'No,
I tell you. We are no longer so gullible as to believe everything the
Lord God Almighty might have to say. We are free beings. And we are
thinking beings. And the future is OURS!' he yelled, the last words
carrying well around the grounds.
A
cheer went up again, and Saruviel stood down from the dais, and
people went up and crowded all around him.
He
noticed her, and he waved to her, and Linda was entranced. Magnetic
attraction at its most powerful – and seductive.
Later
on, when the core of Saruviel's elite were inside his office in
Kalphon, Saruviel was speaking.
'Soon,
friends, we make our first decisive move. I'll let you know the
details soon enough, but it won't be this cycle anyway. But soon
enough. And thanks, everyone, for making it today. We sent a message
today to Zaphon. A clear one. We're not their servants anymore. Their
pawns no longer. The future is OURS friends. The future is
ours.'
When
everyone had left, Saruviel poured himself a glass of grog, and came
and sat next to Linda on the couch.
'You
were powerful today,' she said.
'Thanks,'
he said.
'You
looked – like a God,' she said.
He
grinned a wry smile.
She
kissed him on the cheek, then, and got down in front of him, opened
up his clothing and took out his phallus, and she pumped it with her
hand for a while, and then orally sucked him for ages.
And
he was in heaven for a while, the King of his whole Universe. The
Master of his whole Domain.
*
* * * *
A
sharp knife was in her hand. She held it, looking at the picture. He
annoyed her, now. He did more than that – he upset her heart, the
deepest part of her soul. He had betrayed her. Her standing in the
community.
Krystabel
took the sharp knife and, looking fiercely at Elenniel's ancient and
famous picture of Saruviel, hacked at the canvas, and plunging hole
after hole into the what must be startled expression of her brother
she knew all to welll.
'Take
that, bastard,' she said over and over again, extremely upset. The
Painting didn't survive very long.
It
was Ambriel, who had been sent by God very quickly, to go and see his
sister, who found her in the corner of the Pelnaphon artroom, huddled
down in a corner, next to the destroyed artwork, sobbing softly to
herself.
'Kryssie,'
he said very softly. 'It's ok. It's me, Ambriel.'
She
looked up at him, tears in her eyes. 'I hate him,' she said. Ambriel
saw the destroyed picture of Saruviel, and knew instantly what to do.
Carefully he picked up the picture, and the knife, and stored them
out of sight, and then, returning to Krystabel, he helped her to her
feet, and persuaded her to come to the emergency dorm of Pelnaphon,
were an angel quickly attended her, giving her a bed, and looking to
her welfare.
Ambriel
sat with her.
'It's
just,' she began. 'It's just that, well. I'm his twin. And will
anybody ever respect either of us again? Oh, I love him. But he's
gone off into something which is too big for him to handle. He
doesn't know what he is getting himself into. And I'm suffering every
day because of it.'
Ambriel
put his arm around his sister to comfort her.
'It's
ok,' he said. 'Everything will be ok. God is in control.'
She
sniffled for a while and, eventually, starting to tire, rolled over
and fell asleep. Ambriel watched her for some time, as she slept
there, snoring very lightly, an Angel whose life had been torn apart.
How many more angels would suffer as such under the wrath of Saruviel
before this thing was over, he wondered to himself? How many more
would find tears in their hearts and tears on their pillows? How many
more broken souls? How many?
*
* * * *
The
Cherubim Noah was a revered Cherubim in the community. He had a way
about him, a presence of character, and a devotion to God few other's
managed. He was respected.
Yet
Saruviel he did not respect, for the most part. In fact, for the most
part, he disdained the fellow.
'What
the heck is your problem, Seventhborn?' queried Noah, from the upper
library lounge of Kalphon keep.
'Noah.
I did not see you come in,' responded Saruviel.
'I
came looking for you. Your recklessness has gone on long enough, big
brother. I'm calling you to account.'
'To
account for my beliefs, dear Noah? But they are only the truth. They
are only the heart of what everyone wants in the end. You know.'
'I
prefer God, his Torah and a clear understanding of what the creator
requires of me,' responded Noah, sitting down opposite the angel. 'Do
you have those priorities?'
'Obviously
not,' responded Saruviel.
'Then
I will say it,' said Noah. 'You are acting out of line. You are
causing disharmony in the community, and angels are suffering because
of your actions and deeds as well as your words. You need to get a
grip on what you are really going on about, bro. Because nothing good
will come of it.'
'You........JUDGE
me?' queried Saruviel, an air of hostility in his voice. 'I only
speak TRUTH fool.'
'Don't
YOU call me fool. I may be younger than you, but my Torah knowledge
probably already supersedes your own,' responded Noah.
Saruviel
glared at him. 'Ok. What do you really want. If you think you have
come to change my mind, think again. I won't be listening to the
likes of you.'
'No.
No, you won't, will you,' said Noah. 'Very well. Be stubborn. But I
will pray, I tell you. Each day, until you are dealt with. And be it
your own responsibility.'
'Go
ahead, Noah. Pray.'
And
Noah prayed. And Noah prayed.
*
* * * *
Semambarel
and Devuel were on the outer grounds of Kalphon keep, up the northern
section, drinking grog and smoking tobacco.
'Love
this stuff,' said Devuel, referring to the tobacco.
'It's
ok,' said Semambarel. 'It makes me cough a lot, but I get a high when
I smoke it. Feel really good for ages, but then my lungs start
hurting if I smoke too much for too long, and I have to quit for a
few months. The health angels say not to abuse the things. Could even
kill you if you smoke them too much.'
'Kill
us? I know what they say, the end of life. And God would have to
bring you back. I mean, how does that happen?' asked Devuel.
'I
have been told if you lost your head in an accident, or something
else very severe happened to your body, you could die. It can kill
you,' replied Semamberel.
'Devuel
without a head?' thought Devuel to himself out loud. 'He might even
make more sense that way.'
'I
think I would have to agree,' said Luladiel, suddenly coming into
view, approaching them from the keep.
'Hey
babe,' said Devuel. 'Nice to see you again. Finally coming around to
our point of view.'
'Saruviel's
a nut,' said Luladiel.
'Or
apparently not,' said Semambarel smiling.
'The
only reason you, my dastardly twin,' said Luladiel to her twin Devuel
of the Seraphim. 'The only reason you hang around Saruviel is to be
cool. It is your ONLY motivation. To be one of the bad boys. Nothing
to do with his beliefs, which you couldn't give two hoots about. Just
your reputation.'
'You
know me too well, babe,' replied Devuel, which got one of those looks
from Luladiel which he knew all too well.
'Unfortunately,
Yes,' agreed Luladiel, who sat down next to Devuel, took a bottle of
grog, and started drinking.
'Daniel
will be here soon, as well,' said Luladiel. 'Wanted you and
Semambarel to know he has concerns, but that he can chill as well,'
said Luladiel.
'We
are not ALL Squares!' said Daniel out loud, coming over the small
rise into view. He had grog with him, and two packs of Taylor Made
cigarettes.
'Here,'
he said, throwing a pack of ciggies in front of Devuel.
'Enjoy.'
'Awesome,
Dan. About time you chilled again,' said Devuel.
'I
ordered us some entertainment,' said Daniel. 'A lute player. Good
one.'
Nadiel
the Cherubim came into view a few moments later, carrying her lute,
her prized possession, and as she started playing some of the
classics and some of the newer tunes, they small group of Evening
Stars, in the evening of eternity, enjoyed themselves, partied and,
all things considered, had a jolly good time. And Saruviel's agenda
was not even mentioned the once.
*
* * * *
'Hey
babe. She tastes good, doesn't she,' said Saruviel.
Linda
lifted her head from between the legs of a cherubim girl. She had
been engaged in – questionable activities - by the standards of
society. 'Sure, sweetie,' she replied. 'Do you have a fag?'
'Better
yet. Some dope,' he replied.
'Brilliant,'
she said, and took a puff. She was high all night.
The
following morning, the girls and the guys gone, she was alone in her
bedroom when she woke. She went to the mirror and looked at herself.
It was like another lady looking at her. Someone drugged up, high all
the time, and out of their friggin minds. Literally. What the heck
was she doing? Going Crazy?
'You
look fine,' said Saruviel, coming into the bathroom. 'Woman always
fuss too much about their looks.'
'I'm
fucked up,' she said, looking at him honestly.
'Come
on babe,' said Saruviel. 'What's life without a party? The girls are
coming back over soon, and we have a fresh supply of grog.'
'I
notice you never get to wasted,' she said sarcastically.
'Hey,
I have to watch over a new movement. But my heart is with you,' he
replied. Saruviel hardly ever touched serious grog or the other
intoxicants.
He
turned to her. 'You'll be out soon enough, right?'
Linda
stared at him. This was it. Her life. Sure, she normally had
something of a life. A now godforsaken twin who USED to visit her. A
decent part-time job. Something to live for and be represented as in
the community.
And
now? An angel with a bad reputation, who looked even worse, and who
felt? Well, enough to say who looked even worse. She was a
wreck.
'Sure,'
she replied to her dark lord. 'I'll be out later. Need to get some
more sleep first.'
'I'll
be in the other room,' he said. 'Look, don't worry babe. You'll be
fine. Come on. It could hardly kill you.'
When
he disappeared she looked again in the mirror and thought on his last
comment. 'If only,' she thought sarcastically to herself. 'If
only.'
*
* * * *
Nadiel
sat on the ground, her lute between her legs, dozing. It was cold,
but she didn't really notice. She'd been partying, again, all night
with the group, and Saruviel and Linda came and joined them last
night. Nadiel felt her cherubim sister Linda had gotten a bit out of
hand, and seeing her confirmed some of her fears. She looked a bit of
a state, and the forced makeup was quite noticeable. She was a
mess.
She
woke, and the fire was still burning, the embers warming her feet, so
she moved forward to gain some warmth, and wrapped her cardigan
closely around her. Suddenly hands were there, putting her cardigan
onto her, and putting a rug around her. It was Daniel.
'You
know,' said the twin of Daniel the Cherubim, to Daniel the Seraphim.
'It might be ironic, but I think I like you more than my own twin.
And your the SENIOR Daniel.'
Daniel
smiled at her. 'Your a great girl yourself, Nadiel. I think we click
in many ways. Lots in common, because Daniel and myself have similar
ideas and sensibilities and something, as I said, just clicks between
us. Chemistry, maybe, but respect I think. You appreciate
intellectual sarcasm, and I like being appreciated properly.
She
put her hand to her head, and giggled. 'Oh. And my winning
personality?'
'You
have a personality?' he asked her, and she laughed out loud. They did
get along.
'Oh,
shut up you two,' said Linda, opening bleary eyes. 'What time is
it?'
'Morning.
Just about,' said Daniel. 'Very early, but the light is coming in
now.'
'Time
for breakfast, sweetie,' said Saruviel, suddenly awake, to
Linda.
'Oh,
god no,' responded Linda. 'You'll only make me drink again.'
'Not
this morning. Fried flapcakes and Honeyflower syrup. That's what I'll
order for you from Kalphon's best cook.'
'Sound's
tolerable,' said Linda, feeling a bit better.
'Are
you sure you know what you are doing, Saruviel?' Daniel asked his
older brother. 'I mean, all is well and good with the Freedom
platform you maintain, but I didn't think your agenda was messing
around with personal lives. Have you seen Linda's face? She's a
wreck.'
Saruviel
looked at her. 'She'll live,' he said sarcastically.
'Sure
will,' replied Linda, and lit a cigarette from the burning
fireplace.
'Yeh,
she'll live,' said Daniel. 'But for how long?'
'Worry
wart,' responded Saruviel, and kicked at Devuel and Semambarel,
waking them.
'Come
on, dudes. Farty face Daniel is preaching again.'
'What
time is it?' asked a bleary faced Devuel.
'It's
too early,' said Semambarel. 'Wake me in an hour.'
Saruviel
shrugged, and as he stood and stretched, he looked at Linda. She did
look a bit of a state, and he HAD noticed.
He
turned to Daniel. 'You know. Don't worry Dan. I'll go easy on her
today. Treat her right. I love her too, you know, bro.'
'Good
to hear,' said Linda drowsily, getting to her feet.
As
they stumbled off, the day starting to brighten, Daniel rested his
head on Semambarel's legs, who was snoring loudly now, and said out
loud. 'Another day of madness in the Realm of Eternity, hey
Nads.'
She
got up on his chest, kissed him on the mouth, and said 'And don't you
love it.'
He
kissed her back, and they woke Semambarel, and soon were chasing down
the others, looking forwards to Kalphon's breakfast menu for the
day.
*
* * * *
But
it wasn't enough for Saruviel, a freedom platform, and some preaching
of his views. It was action he wanted. And then they missed assembly.
And then some work duties. And then, separating, and not joining in
with any of the regular activities. And, as time passed to Linda,
whose face wore more and more the marks of what she only called
decadence in her lifestyle, she came to realize that freedom without
responsibility was a life which ended in pain. And she was suffering
every day in the freedoms she now allowed for herself. Every single
day.
*
* * * *
They'd
had their game of Chulara, or Katchular as it was traditionally
called, and Saruviel had made it clear enough to Michael his views
and the lengths he would go to to defend his freedom, and then God
had spoken to Michael and told him his own judgement impending under
the words of Raguel. And Michael had no real choice but to accept
them.
'A
Tree of Knowledge of Good and Evil,' God had said to Michael in a
dream. 'And some partake far too soon.'
Michael
was in Zaphon keep, on the ground floor, in the ancient small lounge
area, sitting there, thinking. Just thinking.
Michael
of the Seraphim was the firstborn angel of Eternity. In his life so
far he had seen much and done much. But in all of that, the kind of
rebellion, as it was called, that Saruviel and his cohorts were
engaged in at the moment, was unprecedented. It had never happened
like this before. Perhaps minor glimpses of such realities, in the
same players even – but never such an extreme. Never.
And
Michael didn't like it.
He
was orderly, and lawful and complied with Torah and knew the wisdom
and truth of God and that life was balanced on obedience to God and
his will and, more importantly than anything else, knowing the
eternal deity. Knowing him with all the strength within you. Because
then you could emulate him, and grow in trust knowing his power and
strengths. Which is were Saruviel threatened him for, in many ways,
with all this talk of freedom and doing your own will, it only
appeared to be the direct opposite of Torah and the opposite of all
the sound wisdom Michael knew in his heart to be true. But it was oh,
so alluring. Forbidden fruit, apparently, from his dream. Oh, so
alluring.
He
knew now, knowing the impending judgement of God, that Saruviel was
getting what he deserved. That deep in the heart of Saruviel had been
life lessons taught by God his father which Saruviel had both
neglected and, in fact, ignored. Saruviel did not want to KNOW his
God's opinion on these subjects and, further, he did not even CARE.
He was his own angel, now, God had made apparent to Michael. And
while that was, in the end, not necessarily a bad thing, the kind of
reckless ambition that Saruviel was pursuing his ambitions of freedom
for all with, well. Well in the judgement of God no good could come
of it.
And
yes, Saruviel would know that judgement soon enough.
Michael
felt, in a strange way, lucky. Perhaps it was luck or, perhaps, it
was just the way he had been born. The way God had made him. As if
the fundamentals of Michael the Seraphim were not the choices of
Michael the Seraphim, but a heart, fashioned in the eternal life of
the wisdom of God, which knew the kind of decisions Michael would
already make. And that Michael, when he made his choices, was only
choosing as such because that was what he already was in his heart.
That his lifelong decisions only ever reflected the wisdom of God in
the way that God had made him.
But
what then of how God had fashioned Saruviel?
What
then?
No
matter, the judgement had come and thus, Michael must verily assume,
Saruviel was guilty. He must be. And so, for the next while, awaiting
the judgement of God, Michael would act calmly, regularly, and not
really voice his opinion on this matter again, till the judgement
came. And then he need not speak any more regardless. It would be
known to all.
He
sat there, on a couch, thinking, looking into the space of Zaphon
keep, oblivious to all, heavy thoughts in heart, heavy thoughts in
his soul. Another day in the life of Archangel Michael, Firstborn
Seraphim of the Realm of Eternity.
*
* * * *
Saruviel
sat in the darkness. Ever downwards, the dreams had told him. To be
taken ever downwards and then, rest. Into a darkness which would be
his abode. In a darkness that would be his resting place, from
thence, till the judgement of God waned, if ever should such a think
come to pass. For he had pronounced no time limit to his punishment,
had the father of Glory, yet not pronunced it truly eternal. And
thus, he waited in the darkness, Ambriel now visiting occasionally,
speaking solitary words of the Realm, as he and Kantriel and Daraqel
and the others dwelt there, in the darkness, that deathly night being
their only friend.
He
dreamed away most of the day, for there was nought else to occupy his
time with, and conversation had run dry betwixt the fallen. They knew
they had been judged, and sat there, doing their time of punishment,
not knowing the days of the wrath of God, not knowing the days of
their forgiveness, if ever a thing should be.
Saruviel
burned for a while, in his pride. His pride defeated after some
months of quiet, obvious now they would not be so soon forgiven, he
sat there now stewing in revenge somewhat, but that too was
dissipating. Mainly now just suffering. And questioning. Yet again,
questioning. And an obvious truth became more so. He might speak of
freedom. He might speak of absolute rights and sovereign wills, but
there was one, undeniable, immutable, absolute utter truth, now, to
his existence. God. And God did not necessarily view the matter with
the enlightened wisdom of Saruviel.
Perhaps
he had been foolish. He had cast that idea aside at first, knowing
his wisdom infallible. But then, if infallible, why had it failed.
Why had not – God – seen it his way?
So
he suffered, and questioned, and, in this millennial abode of
self-inquiry, forced by the hand of the Most High, he even
contemplated, just a little, the wisdom of that God who had punished
him so. Just a little, mind you. Just a little.
*
* * * *
Linda
looked in the mirror. It was gone, now, seemingly. Her youthfulness.
And, perhaps, another intimate part of her being as well. But the
best of her was still there, Linda still looked out proudly in
reflection, now changed a great deal, now, strangely, a little older,
a little wiser, a little more alert to the machinations of Saruviel
the Dreaded One. When the judgement came, she had been much like the
rest of them. Unprepared, shocked and a dismayed. But it was ironic.
Life – simply – went on. Whatever would be, had been, and life –
simply – went on. And she, with no Saruviel calling on her every
other day, returned to something of a semblance of her normal
routine. Her looks gradually improved, even though she still drank a
bit. Her smell also improved, although the skin still suffered a bit
from tobacco rash when she indulged too much. Yet, all in all, things
were getting better. Things were getting better.
Her
twin visited her the other day. Said hello. Said she looked better.
She took that as a compliment. And she got her working position back,
the part-time labour she did for the Ream, which was what usually
earned her keep. She got back to it, and life, as she knew it, seemed
to gradually be returning to its regular hum and drum. She was over
most of it.
But
still something lingered.
It
was as if, in the heart of Linda the Cherubim, a fire had been lit,
which had one word written on it. 'SARUVIEL'. And that fire would not
be quenched by a sudden judgement, or a current departure from the
realm. It would take more than that – much more – to do away with
the magnetic hold the personality of Saruviel the Seraphim held on
Linda the Cherubim.
Yet,
for now, she had peace. For now, she had rest. And as the Realm of
Eternity indeed got back to a semblance of order it had once known,
she thanked God for small mercies. And, finally, for a decent night's
sleep.
The
End